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Name: Bethany
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Birthday: 7/29/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: God, helping the people I can, Music, Musicals, Writing anything, and my friends and family
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  BethanX 2
MSN: BethanX
Member Since:
12/4/2004
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| So for the last three weeks, my life has been in warp speed like a tornado spinning me out of control between graduation, play, and mid-drama plus sickness, not eating, and not sleeping. It's been pretty busy. Now my warp speed has broken. The tornado has disappeared and dropped me in slow mo. It's so insane! A week ago, I was surrounded by all of my friends and now I'm stuck. Tomorrow at 12:37, it will be a week since I have seen my friends. Whats sad (beyond that) is that I probably won't see anyone of them on a regular bases. Slowly, I can feel myself understanding that and wanting to cry or break down. But here in slow mo the more emotion you show the crazier people think you are. I am happy to be here, but I want my life to start. I want to know what I'm suppose to be doing and I want to do it. I need to learn how to live without my friends again.(Which is going to take the longest to relearn) The only person I have to depend on is me(Person I can see person). So I'm stuck here in slow mo, alone and bored just waiting to see what comes next. I'm hoping that I don't go from warp to slow a regular pace would be nice too. Thanks for listening, Bye! | | |
| Yearbook lies Stay in touch Don’t ever change These are lies! Hardly anyone means them Rarely anyone stays in touch And everyone changes The question is – Can we stay in touch While we are changing Or do we have to be there for the process Is it only the lucky who hold on the friends Is it only the few that stay in touch These are not lies when we write them They become lies as we change and grow We have no way of knowing what will happen So can we be blamed for not listening to these phrases? Will the yearbook lies follow us, forever? Is there anything else that we can say? At a time full of change and uncertainty When we are wishing for these phrases to be true Stay in touch Don’t ever change Take life with a grain of salt Never give up It won’t last long Things will work out Keep chasing that dream Always look towards tomorrow Maybe these are better phrases to put down They are encouraging and do not rack you with guilt when read after a couple of years | | |
| Well the day I have been hoping for and dreading has come and I am happy to say that I get a SENIOR RECITAL! The hearing was soo scary, that half way through I wanted to give up and just not try anymore, but it's alright now because the worst part is over. It's really funny how our lives are determined. One minute, you want to throw-up and the next you feel that the world has been lifted off of your shoulders. I am sooo excited about this! Since freshmen year when I saw Rachel Cunningham's Senior Recital I have wanted one. But what's funny is that I never really thought I would ever get it. You know how you have those far off dreams that one day you want to acheive or do, I guess that's what this was for such a long time that it's hard to believe that I really get one. I have barely stopped smiling throughout the day. But even tho the hardest part is over, I want to do ever better so that the Music Dept is proud of the fact that I got a recital. My dream of singing in Seeger is coming true. I really hope it's not the last "far off" dream that comes true. I have no idea what I'm doing after school. I have a job interview tomorrow, but if I don't get it I'm not sure what I will do. I don't want to go home, because honestly I'm sick of Ohio. My friends keep saying that I could live with them, but I know I won't have the money to pay rent and such until I have a job. And if I don't know where I'm going to be how can I get a job??? Then there is the fact of leaving my family, which I am both for and against. I guess everyone has these types of questions before they graduate from College, but it's times like this I really wish I had an older sibling, who could give me advice or an example of what the heck I could do. An older brother would be nice to have right about now or sister. I just don't really know what I'm going to do. All I've been working for at College is a Senior Recital and now that I have it. I guess it's time to look towards the future at the other faint dreams I have and just keep praying that everything will try out for the best in the end, like it normally does. | | |
| What is Christmas?
Honestly it's a normal day
Just one of 365
Why is it special? Jesus really wasn't born on Dec. 25th
Stores would survive with out the Christmas rush
People would save time and Money
Why do we need Christmas? Children do not need all the toys
Parents don't need the aggravion
With the Presents lining the tree
With Child like faith and wonder When you're not going to get anything
Can you still be happy?
Homeless sleeping on the streets on the happiest day of the year?
Are they happy?
Do their children understand? Why do we need Christmas?
We just do!
We need the excuse to hang out with family
To give each other gifts and time
To eat together and enjoy it
To laugh and cry
To celebrate life for 1 out of 365
To celebrate Faith and God's Love
that we could never earn
To remember why we are here and to be thankful for all the love,
gifts, Family, and Friends
God has given to us That is why we Need a Christmas!
ME | | |
| Welcome Home! So I'm home until the 13th of Jan. I don't have to work Christmas, which is really nice. Oh I'm sick too with a cold or something, so I've been sleeping a lot and I've been dreaming too. I haven't dreamed for a while, last night a had a dream that I was going swim somewhere down south and then I was in a doctor office and he was yelling at me because I did not have my three songs learned for my Senoir Recital, then I woke up and felt a little better, because I remembered that Christmas hasn't even passed yet so I still have time. In other news, I made my mother cry two nights ago. I asked her what she would do if I couldn't come home for Christmas next year and she started crying which made me feel completely awful. I'm working the next three days, so I'm hoping this cold or whatever it is will go away soon, also since I'm singing on Christmas Eve. I didn't ask too, but it will be fun if I have a voice since right now I can barely speak. That is about all that I can write here. I hope everyone is doing alright. Love to All! | | |
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